May 15, 2018
Dear Emma Rose.
You are the person who made me a mommy. And what a joy it has been. Your daddy and I didn’t expect to have a baby so early into our marriage, but you were and have been, THE BEST GIFT! I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Before you were born I wondered what it would be like to be a mom. I didn’t know if I would be good at it or if I could love you the way I needed to. It was all so new and scary to think of raising our own child! I had no idea the amount of love that my heart could hold! I remember seeing you for the first time and not knowing how I ever lived without you. Each day since then my love has only grown. With each new thing that you do or learn, my heart melts. I try to hold onto each moment and remember the little things because life is moving by so fast!
I love your joy for life and your sweet spirit. I love the way you say mama and always want me to play with you. I love how you copy everything I do and want to be just like me. With that, I know there comes a huge responsibility. I always hope and pray that I can be the best mama for you as you grow up. I hope you always see the love of Jesus shine through me and your daddy.
These last (almost three years) have been the best years of my life so far. You have taught me soooo much about life, God, and myself. I know I am not the perfect mom, and I have failed you multiple times. There have been so many times we didn’t know if we were doing anything right. But with God’s help, I am striving to love you like Christ and raise you up to love Him with your whole heart.
Now your baby sister is almost here and things are about to change. But we want you to know that just because we will have another baby, we won’t love you any less! You will always be so important and special to us. And we can’t wait to see how you will love your sister and grow up with her. You are going to be the best big sister! I just know it. You are already so loving and nurturing. I know that she is going to be the luckiest girl ever to have you as her sissy.
Your mama is emotional and so many thoughts are running through my mind. There will be a lot of things that change soon. But I want you to know that you don’t have to worry. A new baby doesn’t mean that my love for you will change or diminish. I know that our love is only going to multiply! Our hearts will be overflowing when we see you with your baby sister together for the first time.
I am so glad that you get to have a sister to grow up with. I loved having your “Auntie BB” as my sister. We always played together growing up and now we get to share our life experiences together. It is such a blessing to have a sister.
Your baby sis is due in a little over two weeks and I seriously can’t wait to see the two of you together for the first time. I want you to know that your mama loves you so much and I always will! Thanks for being the best daughter I could have ever dreamed of. I am so blessed that I get to call you mine.
Love, your mommy